That is always the question. I’ve never been one to actually DO all the things on my to-do list; I just like making them. Most of the time, I find something to do that’s more fun or higher priority, so the list becomes inconsequential. I hear you asking, “Why bother making it?”
Because I can’t sleep at night. My brain runs constantly at 100 mph, thinking of the stuff I have to do. I live an action packed life. For the next few months, I’m booked solid. Improv classes, play rehearsal, rehabbing my busted up knee, re-learning how to play roller derby, traveling for work, three weddings, the list goes on… this is all in addition to the normal day to day stuff, like spending time with my cats so they don’t eat my face while I’m dozing on the couch. So I started making to-do lists before I go to bed. They’re kind of like the worry dolls my mom gave me as a child.
You know how sometimes, you have a full day scheduled ahead of you, and say to yourself, “I’ll squeeze that in, if I have time”? I say that all the time! Then I feel guilty about not squeezing it in and instead spending my time doing something I really want to do, like watching Beetlejuice in my underwear and eating ice cream. So, right next to my to-do list, I make a DO NOT DO list. I give myself permission NOT to do my physical therapy for a day, NOT to go to the gym, NOT to go to roller derby practice, and NOT to work on learning my lines. Because let’s face it- who has the time? My to-do list is still a zillion miles long, but I have four less things to worry (and feel guilty) about. And it’s not like those things are going to disappear if I don’t do them on this one particular day. My worries will still be there the next day. I’ll worry about them then.
What’s on your to-do list?
–Barbara
Tags: sleep, to do list, worry














